Post by AALIYAH MARGARET AUSTERLITZ on Apr 16, 2010 19:35:55 GMT -5
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[/color][/size][/font]fifteen - year 9 - old money - esti ginzburg
Blog Entry Uno-
Hi. You probably don't know me, but you know my last name. Well, let me introduce myself, I'm Aaliyah, and the reason you probably don't know me, is because I'm in year nine. I am at the bottom of the food chain and it is my first year here. You probably don't understand how big of a deal this is for me. I have three older siblings, one sister and two brothers, and every year I've watched them go off to school, jealous. Let's just cut to the chase...
As an Austerlitz, I have this pre-set reputation as having a great big stick up my ass. But do I? No, well, I don't know. I'm sort of different from my siblings. My parents have raised us to be a certain way. I guess we're accused of thinking that we're better than everyone else. Lillian is this determined, crazy ambitious person. I never knew what happened to her at school and I don't know whether she really is that person, but when we were growing up she was always doing everything possible to set the proper example for my brothers, and my younger sister and I. I tend to daze off a lot and it's almost like I'm always on this incredible high. I never pay attention to my dad's cheating, or my mom's numbness. I never listen to the lectures they give me about trying harder. I just ignore everything. I still get perfect grades, I just don't care about them, they come easy to me, I'm smart in that strange, airy way.
To be quite honest, this summer, I went a little wild. I managed to go to a party or rave almost every night. The sickest rave was when I was in Brazil, I had such a high there. Everything was so beautiful and dizzying. I've tried acid, cocaine, and heroine. The only one I actually liked was heroine though. Acid and cocaine made me sick. I gotta say though, the acid trip was incredible, the afterwards...not so much. Oh, and then there was ecstasy in Sydney, that was just one of the most amazing experiences of my life. I'm not addicted to any of them, I've just tried them all. I like trying new things. But really, I'm not an addict. Just don't tell my siblings...
Most people would say that I'm a private person. I don't exactly talk about my feelings, or show them very much. I like the sun, a lot. I like staring up at it. The clouds are pretty too. You could probably say that I'm a 'spacey' person. I don't necessarily need drugs, they just increase my ongoing high. I don't know how I would explain myself. I don't really care what other people think, but mostly because I never pay attention to it. I'm strangely good at analyzing peoples' emotions though. I don't talk a lot, I just watch most of the time. It's a lot easier that way. I like to see things from different perspectives, which saves me from that Austerlitz 'better than everyone' mentality.'
I don't know who I am. I don't have a "story". I never take pictures of anything. I don't like talking.
I don't want to know who I am yet. I have my whole life to figure it out.
No one actually has a "story", just a bunch of crazy events that are connected through time.
I don't like pictures because memories are substantial enough for me.
I like silent movies. It's amazing how much you can tell by not talking. You can see so much of the world and the people that live in it, if you stop talking and just listen. The human face was meant to convey emotions.
sylvie -forteen- eastern standard- PM, e-mail, im.
