Post by CHLOE ANNE LEVITON on Apr 19, 2010 4:27:37 GMT -5
chloe a. leviton
[/color][/size][/font]sixteen - ten - new money - emma roberts
DEAR GRAMMY ,can you believe it? little old me, going to a place like santa croce academy? and in milan, no less! just thinking about it boggles me! italy! europe! the culture! the history! the beauty! it's oh so much more interesting than boring old america, with LA in it's boring plastic celebrity bubble. people think hollywood is really glamorous, because that's what it looks like on awards nights and in movies, but truthfully, it's just really dirty and boring and tacky.
the people at this school. they're just too beautiful. it's like, wow! they have so much money, so much class. it's amazing. they can have anything they want. well i mean so can we but it's not the same. price is nothing for these people. i wish i could be as elegant, as sure of myself, as gorgeous as any of the girls here... it's hard being noticed though. stuck in the middle of seventeen kids. then again, here you stick out like a sore thumb, being one of 'the leviton kids', you know, that family with seventeen kids.
i feel so plain here, like the world's biggest country bumpkin. why oh why must american accents be so obnoxious? why oh why in general to americans have such a bad reputation. i'm not not stupid! i know geography! i'm not fat! i never understood there was a difference between new and old money before i came here. i didn't think money could age, but here it's so important. all i want to do is be like the people here. they're amazing. sure, i love my family and all, but sometimes i think i shouldn't have followed them here. well i choose to come but so did everyone else. i think i'd be scared here on my own, really.
i mean i already had to leave so many friends behind just to come here. not that i had many but still. but i feel so left out. i can't do all this stuff people do. i'm not used to the spending, the skills they have, their intelligence. the school work here is hard, and everything is so... luxurious. so, like i said, without my family? it'd be hard. at least there's other people who understand what it's like to struggle here when you're not used to it. especially when half the other kids look down their noses on my like i'm just trailer trash or some hick. i guess it must be my job to prove them wrong. i'm here now, there's no turning back. i'd die of embarrassment before i gave up and went home, before i gave up this opportunity. mom and dad said they just want us all to be the best they can be, and graduating, from a school like this? i could do anything i wanted.
oh well. i guess that's enough of my day dreams for now. i think dinner's soon; i can hear other people outside. i better go now. thanks for listening. like always. i miss you lots. and write back soon
signing off ,
your loving grand daughter ,
CHLOE ♥
jess - seventeen - aest - ask me
